on trans and AGP.
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on trans and AGP.
Angelic Fri Aug 03, 2018 5:11 pm
So its like, when I am feeling exceptionally lazy and tired, I get this fantasy. And the fantasy is that I am a girl, with money falling on my head, gold coins, just raining on my head, and it is a metaphor of getting cummed on and being adored, like a stripper.
So my point is, why is my AGP held against me as a transwoman? Having AGP tendencies is not mutually exclusive of being trans. It's like there is more to me, as a woman, than just my AGP. For example I used to be obsessed with stuffed animals, until age 25 when I got my heart shattered into pieces. And I cared about animals. Until age 25, when I got my heart shattered into pieces.
Also, there was a standup comic on Americas Got Talent. My friend said it reminded them of me. Except that wasn't a fact. The true fact is that it reminded me of some other transwoman. And I don't want to talk about her in fact I should have never even brought her up.
Comic goes like this. "Today I decided to start my transition." Pause.
"On to a new diet."
That's the joke. Because they looked like a transish emo male with girly creepy mannerisms. So the joke was, they were going to go on about their sex-change. But then they said, 'diet', instead of sex-change. That was the joke.
So about AGP. If someone never gets any love or attention, maybe they want love and sexual attention. If someone gets rejected their whole lives, maybe they want to get laid. And maybe you want to be worshipped and adored to overcompensate and feel secure about yourself. But if you want to get laid you are told you are evil, fake, and not a real woman.
It's like this. There is more to me than AGP. I care about animals. Until age 25, when I got my heart broken as the final blow. Who is it that doesn't eat steak or red meats? And I only eat white meats when I'm at a friends house. Who is it that advocates for rights of prisoners? (prisoners are animals.) Who is it that advocates for vegan lands.
Who is it that wants to cry, but afraid to because they been raised male, but are deeply sad about things. Who is it that has exquisite taste in food, exquisite taste in fashion, better than anyone else. Who else could make a better rich and famous lifestyle, than even the rich and famous. Who has actual, real British genes, and thus British taste in architecture and glory. Who is it that eats organic foods? Who has been advocating for organic foods since day one? Who has been a hippie and advocating for a world of love since day one? Yet all of these people willfully ignore my feminine heart and tendencies. All that they see is that I have a broken heart and so act like an asshole nowadays. And then they choose to focus on my AGP and then make up fake news about me. And they judge and act like Americans to me. And it feels like I am the Messiah, it so much feels like I am the Messiah surrounded by philistines, sadjucees and naysayers and haters. And the other part about the Messiah is, I have this manly form which is not my true beautiful angelic form, and people just focus on my manly form and treat me bad, and it's like, do they even know what they are doing, not even the least of these is Me, and they spit on their Lord and Saviour.
So my point is, why is my AGP held against me as a transwoman? Having AGP tendencies is not mutually exclusive of being trans. It's like there is more to me, as a woman, than just my AGP. For example I used to be obsessed with stuffed animals, until age 25 when I got my heart shattered into pieces. And I cared about animals. Until age 25, when I got my heart shattered into pieces.
Also, there was a standup comic on Americas Got Talent. My friend said it reminded them of me. Except that wasn't a fact. The true fact is that it reminded me of some other transwoman. And I don't want to talk about her in fact I should have never even brought her up.
Comic goes like this. "Today I decided to start my transition." Pause.
"On to a new diet."
That's the joke. Because they looked like a transish emo male with girly creepy mannerisms. So the joke was, they were going to go on about their sex-change. But then they said, 'diet', instead of sex-change. That was the joke.
So about AGP. If someone never gets any love or attention, maybe they want love and sexual attention. If someone gets rejected their whole lives, maybe they want to get laid. And maybe you want to be worshipped and adored to overcompensate and feel secure about yourself. But if you want to get laid you are told you are evil, fake, and not a real woman.
It's like this. There is more to me than AGP. I care about animals. Until age 25, when I got my heart broken as the final blow. Who is it that doesn't eat steak or red meats? And I only eat white meats when I'm at a friends house. Who is it that advocates for rights of prisoners? (prisoners are animals.) Who is it that advocates for vegan lands.
Who is it that wants to cry, but afraid to because they been raised male, but are deeply sad about things. Who is it that has exquisite taste in food, exquisite taste in fashion, better than anyone else. Who else could make a better rich and famous lifestyle, than even the rich and famous. Who has actual, real British genes, and thus British taste in architecture and glory. Who is it that eats organic foods? Who has been advocating for organic foods since day one? Who has been a hippie and advocating for a world of love since day one? Yet all of these people willfully ignore my feminine heart and tendencies. All that they see is that I have a broken heart and so act like an asshole nowadays. And then they choose to focus on my AGP and then make up fake news about me. And they judge and act like Americans to me. And it feels like I am the Messiah, it so much feels like I am the Messiah surrounded by philistines, sadjucees and naysayers and haters. And the other part about the Messiah is, I have this manly form which is not my true beautiful angelic form, and people just focus on my manly form and treat me bad, and it's like, do they even know what they are doing, not even the least of these is Me, and they spit on their Lord and Saviour.
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Re: on trans and AGP.
Angelic Fri Aug 03, 2018 5:25 pm
My final thoughts on AGP are this. All I need to do is use my penis one time and get laid. Then I will be good. I will be fine. One of two things will happen. Either my penis will feel like a utopia and I will want to keep it, or I will want to go through with the sex-change and get rid of the bulge. I will be fine with it. That is the kind of person I am. I will be fine with using my penis only one time if I get to use my vagina many times.
It's like, AGPs may actually be different than crossdressers. I am not the kind of penetrative person of a penis. I crave power and domination, but a female kind of dominatrix kind of domination. I am actually really shy. I am not this overwhelming penetrative force, except unless I get a surge or boost of testosterone.
So it's like this. If a crossdresser gets a sex-change and regrets it, that is just too bad. They might not even have a female brain. They might not be mentally wired the same and so a vagina may feel weird to them. You know what feels weird to me? My penis. Always had. Always been an annoying bulge in my pants that I often can't control. And when my penis asks for love, it never gets it. So how do you think that makes me feel? It's like I have this useless penis that doesn't even get love.
So it's like this. If an AGP gets a sex-change and doesn't like it, so be it. If an AGP gets a sex-change and likes it, so be it. If a crossdresser gets a sex-change and doesn't like it, or likes it, so on and so forth, has nothing to do with me. I am not like them. I don't have many friends. So I am not very common, I am not similar to many people. So yet why am I judged based on these other people, when they are most likely inferior to me, mentally speaking anyway?
And I will say this again. AGP is separate from the dysphoria. I FEEL DYSPHORIA at being male. When I see my male mug in a glass window I get depressed ruins my day. It makes me feel like I am a savage male in the desert, a savage ugly male in the desert who gets no love. And I hate it. And I scream to the universe, why, why hast thou cursed me into the body it did. And it tells me explanations. Like I am on a holy quest to get the world to accept those who are different. Like I am here to suffer so to evolve the world to year 3000. That my story must be famous, to be known to the world, in order to enlighten the society.
It's like, no air conditioning. Naked except for tighty-whities. I look down at my fat American belly and my fat bulge. I hate it and feel disgusting. I feel like a tribal elder of the savage junle. I want to cry but I say I must man up and show no weakness. And my head starts to hurt and I get tension in my neck. It feels like I am in ww2 and my plane is going down and I am soldier who must grin and accept his fat. My fate to be fugly and male. And I hate it especially the BO and sweat. And none of this is AGP. I am not feeling sexual at all like this. It makes me feel asexual actually. And just depressed. And worthless and male and I just hate my body sometimes. Like why didn't the fucking universe make me a hot anime girl instead of a lonely celibate neckbeard fatso.
And then it's like, I go to shave. Fucking razor doesn't even work. I try to shave my neckbeard 10 times. And it feels like I am in three stooges. Like I want to just scream in rage, but then the cops will show up and throw me in jail for disturbing the peace. I swear I feel like Moe of three stooges like halve the time, like I'm just so angry and frustrated perpetually and just want to bop people on the nose (and not the cute type of bop you are thinking of.)
The other thing is, Marilyn Manson got a boob job. Some say he is AGP and not trans. But what does that have to do with me? Maybe I have some tendencies and similarities between me and Marilyn Manson. Maybe we are both AGP. But maybe he is not trans, and I am trans. I am not 100% the same as Marilyn Manson. Do you know what I am? I am very shy. I don't even know if I'd have the courage to go on stage like he does, although I fantasize about going on stage and hope to one day. And you know what? I don't mind being called or compared to Marilyn Manson or told I am Marilyn Manson. But the simple truth is that I am not the same as Marilyn Manson, he is a different person than me. Although I prefer to be called Marilyn Manson than Michael Jackson. Not because Michael is a hebefile but because, Marilyn Manson simply looks more feminine and less manly and savage than Michael Jackson. Although some Michael Jackson songs I do like and I wish he was still alive. Anyway I do not judge. I am cool with everyone except oversensitive serious party poopers and downers. If someone is agp fine, if someone is a crossdresser fine, if someone is trans, fine, I do not judge like that. If I hate you, it is because you are either A. a bitch to me or B. prettier or more well-off than me, and I get envious about it. It's like if Marylon Manson gets a boob job, but decides hes not trans, fine, if he decides he is fine, i don't care either way, he's still a legend, the only thing I care is if he makes good and interesting music. Like I said, gender is a myth anyway, just do what makes you happy, do what floats your boat as they say.
It's like, AGPs may actually be different than crossdressers. I am not the kind of penetrative person of a penis. I crave power and domination, but a female kind of dominatrix kind of domination. I am actually really shy. I am not this overwhelming penetrative force, except unless I get a surge or boost of testosterone.
So it's like this. If a crossdresser gets a sex-change and regrets it, that is just too bad. They might not even have a female brain. They might not be mentally wired the same and so a vagina may feel weird to them. You know what feels weird to me? My penis. Always had. Always been an annoying bulge in my pants that I often can't control. And when my penis asks for love, it never gets it. So how do you think that makes me feel? It's like I have this useless penis that doesn't even get love.
So it's like this. If an AGP gets a sex-change and doesn't like it, so be it. If an AGP gets a sex-change and likes it, so be it. If a crossdresser gets a sex-change and doesn't like it, or likes it, so on and so forth, has nothing to do with me. I am not like them. I don't have many friends. So I am not very common, I am not similar to many people. So yet why am I judged based on these other people, when they are most likely inferior to me, mentally speaking anyway?
And I will say this again. AGP is separate from the dysphoria. I FEEL DYSPHORIA at being male. When I see my male mug in a glass window I get depressed ruins my day. It makes me feel like I am a savage male in the desert, a savage ugly male in the desert who gets no love. And I hate it. And I scream to the universe, why, why hast thou cursed me into the body it did. And it tells me explanations. Like I am on a holy quest to get the world to accept those who are different. Like I am here to suffer so to evolve the world to year 3000. That my story must be famous, to be known to the world, in order to enlighten the society.
It's like, no air conditioning. Naked except for tighty-whities. I look down at my fat American belly and my fat bulge. I hate it and feel disgusting. I feel like a tribal elder of the savage junle. I want to cry but I say I must man up and show no weakness. And my head starts to hurt and I get tension in my neck. It feels like I am in ww2 and my plane is going down and I am soldier who must grin and accept his fat. My fate to be fugly and male. And I hate it especially the BO and sweat. And none of this is AGP. I am not feeling sexual at all like this. It makes me feel asexual actually. And just depressed. And worthless and male and I just hate my body sometimes. Like why didn't the fucking universe make me a hot anime girl instead of a lonely celibate neckbeard fatso.
And then it's like, I go to shave. Fucking razor doesn't even work. I try to shave my neckbeard 10 times. And it feels like I am in three stooges. Like I want to just scream in rage, but then the cops will show up and throw me in jail for disturbing the peace. I swear I feel like Moe of three stooges like halve the time, like I'm just so angry and frustrated perpetually and just want to bop people on the nose (and not the cute type of bop you are thinking of.)
The other thing is, Marilyn Manson got a boob job. Some say he is AGP and not trans. But what does that have to do with me? Maybe I have some tendencies and similarities between me and Marilyn Manson. Maybe we are both AGP. But maybe he is not trans, and I am trans. I am not 100% the same as Marilyn Manson. Do you know what I am? I am very shy. I don't even know if I'd have the courage to go on stage like he does, although I fantasize about going on stage and hope to one day. And you know what? I don't mind being called or compared to Marilyn Manson or told I am Marilyn Manson. But the simple truth is that I am not the same as Marilyn Manson, he is a different person than me. Although I prefer to be called Marilyn Manson than Michael Jackson. Not because Michael is a hebefile but because, Marilyn Manson simply looks more feminine and less manly and savage than Michael Jackson. Although some Michael Jackson songs I do like and I wish he was still alive. Anyway I do not judge. I am cool with everyone except oversensitive serious party poopers and downers. If someone is agp fine, if someone is a crossdresser fine, if someone is trans, fine, I do not judge like that. If I hate you, it is because you are either A. a bitch to me or B. prettier or more well-off than me, and I get envious about it. It's like if Marylon Manson gets a boob job, but decides hes not trans, fine, if he decides he is fine, i don't care either way, he's still a legend, the only thing I care is if he makes good and interesting music. Like I said, gender is a myth anyway, just do what makes you happy, do what floats your boat as they say.
Angelic- Posts : 473
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